galau akademis

melihat manusia-manusia berkaus putih -hampir- polos lengan panjang dan bawahan biru tua berlari di sekeliling --hanya sebagian kecil-- sekolah
mendengar salam-salam yang menyapa ramah di tengah napas yang memburu karena berlari naik-turun tiga tingkat, lelah
hal yang dikeluhkan sama, tapi beda
menggelitik lidah untuk bicara, mengenang sesuatu setahun yang lampau.

'rasanya kayak baru kemarin pra-GVT ya?'
'baru kemarin kena BL... sekarang ada yang di-BL, tapi bukan angkatan kita. aneh...'
'baru kemarin diajari himne SMA I, sekarang ganti ngajarin.'

rasanya baru kemarin masuk, oktober besok naik kelas --which is almost tidak terasa, for real.

september

ah, well. hello, september.
unexpectedly, it's you.
unexpectedly, we met again.
unexpectedly, time flashes like a blink of eye, too fast to be caught by my senses.

and also, unexpectedly, next month is october.

means what?

being a third-grader, some people said, means you have to study harder. to pray harder. to wish to God that it'll be our year next year, ours... when our wishes come true.

Me? What do I want?
To pass the exam?
To get into the university --and the faculty-- I want the most?

The first thing seemed like it's not a really big deal compared to the second one... and the sub-second one. IYKWIM.

get a scholarship - SNU - architecture. wish me luck!