see-what-i-did

some random GIFs i made yesterday ._. yeaaaaaaaah!! (?)

the teaser

actually i didn't expect anything from their teaser (after those teaser photos-_-) but when i saw the real (?) teaser this afternoon, i was like :O and... yeah... it's surprisingly surprising

just an opinion

1. you're a fan, but a fan isn't supposed to bash another idol who's close to your bias. who are you to him/her (your bias)?

2. it's OK to dislike another group, but could you please, keep your own hatred to yourself OR just say it when you're with your antis friends. don't say it on public places (ex twitter etc). even if you didn't intend to make fanwars, sometimes reading those so-like-tweets will make the-group-who-you-hate's fans get angry and they'll start a fanwar with your name mentioned as the provocateur.
but it's your private life anyway, i just don't like someone who over-bashes another group.

3. for some OTP-antis, could you please let the shippers have their own world and don't disturb them? it's annoying when you said something or joking about a pairing, and then someone else said negative comment about it. it's OK if it's only joking, but if you take it seriously i think some people outta there will bite you.

4. anyway, love life and professional life are two complete different worlds. idols are also humans and they also got the right to manage their own personal life

it's just an opinion, anyway.

(again) randomness -- oh, picspam!

SO! hello guys~

this is Onew speaking... lol *slapped

suzy, check! minho, check! jiyeon, check! BUT WHERE THE HECK DID ONEW COME FROM?!!

oh. OH. sulli and her eye-smileeeeeeeeeeeee (me sounding like a fanboy naw)

Sulli: Who? | Krystal: Me! 

SULBROSSSSSSS :D oh oh oh oh ohohohoh

anyone waiting for this?

looks like i didn't pay much attention to this blog .-.
so sorry, bloggie *hug

B2ST - Lights Go on Again

I prefer the full version to the teaser (?) version anyway .___.

Yes sir, lights go on again
Keep on and on and on, on and on and on
Gyesok hemaeettji gin eodum sogeseo
Nan han julgi bichi dahneun geugose dahgi wihaeseo
Nan ije shigani gappeun soom gadadeumgo
Neoheedeul ape dangdanghi seolge

Amuri himdeureodo jichyeoseo sseureojyeodo
Nareul dashi bichwojuneun bit

Pogihago shipeodo domangchiryeogo haebwado
Nal hyanghae deo hwanhage nareul dashi bichwojuneun bit

Jigeum buli gyeojimyeon dashi nareul balkhimyeon
Nae momeul dashi ireugyeo oh
Light go on again lights go on again

Dashi bicheul bichumyeon dashi nareul ggaeumyeon
Nae maeumeul dashi umjikyeo oh
Lights go on again lights go on again

Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again yeah
Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again on again

I sigan ddohan jinagagettji da jinagagonamyeon useo neomgigettji
Momi jichineun geon mwo gwaenchanha naman himdeun ge anya heunhida geureohjanha
But, maeumo dachyeobeorigeona dadhyeobeorimyeon kamsang hal su eobtneun sangcheoreul badabeorimyeon
Geuddaen eoddeohke haeya hal ji nan molla
Dangshindeul ape dashi seol su eobseul jido molla

Neomuna himdeun naldo meomchwoittdeon shigando
Jichyeoman ganeun nareul deo

Balkke bichwojubeun geon kkeut eobsi nareul hyanghae
Ganghage deo hwanhage dashi nareul bichwojuneun bit

Jigeum buli kyeojimyeon dashi nareul balkimyeon
Nae momeul dashi ireugyeo oh
Lights go on again lights go on again

Dashi bicheul bichumyeon dashi nareul kkaeumyeon
Nae maeumeul dashi umjikyeo oh
Lights go on again lights go on again

Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again yeah
Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again on again
Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again
Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again on again

Translation:

Yes sir, lights go on again
Keep on and on and on, on and on and on
I continued to wonder in the midst of the long darkness
So that I can reach that spot that will touch the one string of light
Now that my time is here, I will take a short breath
And stand confindently in front of you all

No matter how hard it might be, even if I fall from being tired
The light that shines on me again

Even if I want to give up, if I want to run away
The lights that shines brighter towards me

When the lights turns on and it shines on me again
It makes me rise again oh
Lights go on again lights go on again

When the lights shine on me and it wakes me up once again
It moves my heart again oh
Lights go on again lights go on again

Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again yeah
Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again on again

This time will pass again and if it passes by again I will just laugh it off
It is okay even if my body is tired, I’m not the only one tired, it happens to everyone
But, if my heart is damaged or closed, or it is hurt by a scar it can’t handle
I don’t know what to do then
I might not be able to stand in front of all of you again.

Even in the hardest of the days and in the frozen time
You continue to brighten the light on my exhausted self

Endlessly you continue shine
That light on me brighter and stronger

When the lights turns on and it shines on me again
It makes me rise again oh
Lights go on again lights go on again

When the lights shine on me and it wakes me up once again
It moves my heart again oh
Lights go on again lights go on again

Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again yeah
Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again on again

Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again
Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again on again

CN Blue - Teardrops in the Rain

anyway i found (?) this song when i read a fanfic. then i downloaded it and try to listen to it. woohoo i love the lyric!
oh and also this is the original lyric of the song, not the translated one (i think)

No one ever sees, no one feels the pain
Teadrops in the rain

I wish upon a star, I wonder where you are
I wish you're coming back to me again
And everything's the same like it used to be

I see the days go by and still I wonder why
I wonder why it has to be this way
Why can't I have you here just like it used to be

I don't know which way to choose
How can I find a way to go on ?
I don't know if I can go on without you oh

Even if my heart's still beating just for you
I really know you are not feeling like I do
And even if the sun is shining over me
How come I still freeze ?
No one ever sees, no one feels the pain
I shed teardrops in the rain

I wish that I could fly, I wonder what you say
I wish you're flying back to me again
Hope everything's the same like it used to be

I don't know which way to choose
How can I find a way to go on
I don't know if I can go on without you, without you

Even if my heart's still beating just for you
I really know you are not feeling like I do
And even if the sun is shining over me
How come I still freeze ?
No one ever sees, no one feels the pain
I shed teardrops in the rain

Oh... I shed teardrops in the rain
Oh... Hey... Teardrops in the rain

Even if my heart's still beating just for you
I really know you are not feeling like I do
And even if the sun is shining over me
How come I still freeze ?
No one ever sees (no one) no one feels the pain (no one)
I shed teardrops in the rain
Teardrops in the rain
Teardrops in the rain
Teardrops in the rain...

tpm... dan sedikit orek2an tambahan

nooooo besok senin udah tpm lagi. brainstorming lagi (berasa ngulang posting yang dulu --")

jadi ini (ceritanya) tpm tingkat kota terakhir. terus jadi 4 hari dah ujiannya (kan biasanya cuma 2 hari) *sumpah gaknyambung* pokoknya intinya setelah tpm yang besok itu, minggu depannya kita mid semester. gila aja luuuuuu pak, buuuu kapan kita istirahat? *menggeh-menggeh*

padahal seingetku waktu angkatan sebelum angkatanku (010) itu kagak pake mid sodara2, jadi langsung capcus unas, uas, ujian praktek. terus kosooooonnnngggg. sistemnya sih pake acara diubah -_-"

oh oke sudah cukup meratapi nasib tpm-mid-tpm-unas ini. kabar baiknya deh ya, PO-an saya dateeeeng xD xD gila udah nunggu 3 minggu nih. tapi gak segalau pas nunggu lucifer dulu itu, udah kebiasaan sama yang namanya PO sih *gila sok abis gue*

well cukuplah mbacotnya. byeeee~

P.S entah kenapa thanks to nya minho selalu yang paling panjang. serem gue bayangin besok di album ketiga thanks to nya dia mau sebanyak apa -_-

P.P.S dan lagi, kayaknya jaman dulu mereka gak kenal photocard -_-"

SJM Perfection!

yeeeessssss finally it's out! xD xD just go watch it (or download it!) :D

another lyrics

cuma translation lirik Romeo + Juliette sama Romantic. soale baru kesurupan 2 makhluk lagu ini hehe xD

Romeo + Juliette
A painful love story
A love that chilled my heart
Leaving only my gasping breath
Getting further away, growing faint
(oh oh oh oh oh oh)
Girl meets boy
and begins a painful love
their unspeakable love becomes an echo
and love begins again

I loved her, I wanted her
I only saw her, so even though I hate this
My heart cries, wanting to express more
And another day passes in sadness

With only the memories of my love
I know being selfish about you is unnecessary
But now I feel a little confused
You who doesnt know is my boo
I only look at you

A love begins again
You don’t know me
or my love for you
A painful love begins again
I can’t control these feelings
that surge up when I see you
I hate the word goodbye
But I’m a fool that can’t even stop you
from leaving by saying ‘I love you’
I love you! I want to see you

(I still don’t understand)
I don’t know love, I don’t know heartbreak
I still don’t understand
But I know my heart wants you
Oh, my Girl! Oh, my Love!
(Baby, baby, baby, baby)
There is a cloud as pure as your eyes
Just knowing that we see it together is beautiful
The day when the clouds become rain
We can’t see it any longer
This unavoidable consequence
Really hits me at the bottom of my heart

Silently I think about you
I yell to myself ‘I like you’
The echo responds ‘No way’
Without you, my feelings are down
I still believe that you will return
I fell so deep in love
with such a girl like you
Don’t think of me as just a boy
I want to become a man
who can be your love

A love begins again
You don’t know me
or my love for you
A painful love begins again
I can’t control these feelings
that surge up when I see you
I hate the word goodbye
But I’m a fool that can’t even stop you
from leaving by saying ‘I love you’
I love you! I want to see you

Today I will say that I love you
I will make you love me
Our love began so difficultly
Even though you were waiting
I wasn’t able to hold onto you
But that old me is gone

A love begins again
You don’t know me
or my love for you
A painful love begins again
I can’t control these feelings
that surge up when I see you
I hate the word goodbye
But I’m a fool that can’t even stop you
from leaving by saying ‘I love you’
I love you! I want to see you

A love begins again, A love begins again
(A painful love story
A love that chilled my heart
Leaving only my gasping breath
Getting further away, growing faint)
That love begins again, that love begins again
(Girl meets boy
and begins a painful love
their unspeakable love becomes an echo
and love begins again)
I don’t want a goodbye, don’t want a goodbye
(Darling, there are more things I want to say
But knowing that it will never reach you
hurts my heart, hurts my heart, hurts my heart)
I don’t want a goodbye, don’t want a goodbye
(Darling, stop worrying about
if I will come back to you
Get rid of this foolishness, erase it, okay?
P.S Finally,
If I could hear your voice just once..)

I, I love you

another note: entah kenapa begitu denger lagu ini langsung dimasukin ke playlist galau. padahal belum baca translationnya biasa orang pinter emang kayak gitu *plak*

Romantic

Yeah, my girl

I'm an idiot
Your unforgettable love,
The final tears
Are ripping away at my whole heart
It's ripping away,
(I'm Sorry) I'm so sorry

I thoughtlessly walk
Wherever my heart takes me
It seems I am looking for
Those that look similar to you
I'm still standing at the same place
It almost seems like you just tapped my sagging shoulders
And hid from my sight
Why are you not there? can I not see you?
Are my eyes looking too far?
I trusted that I could love again
Still you stay, branded in my heart unmoving.
What do I do?

It can't not be you.
I am so miserable
That I realized this now
The pictures
Make it look like I am still your love
The heat of your body and your face
I can still feel it
Deep inside my heart
Still I have romantic in my heart
I want to go back.

So many days I had
Everything of you.
But why is it (baby why)
That now (tell me why)
That I can't find you?
I'm so frightened that
In the places where our memories are deeply embedded
That I may (I know) see you there with the perfect man.
I trusted that I would meet a love like you again
The pain of you branded in my heart is death
What do I do?

It can't not be you
I am so miserable
That I realized this now
The pictures
Make it look like I am still your love
The heat of your body and your face
I can still feel it
Deep inside my heart
Still I have romantic in my heart
I want to go back.

I guess I'm exhausted.
Left alone I wander,
Looking for the love left in the empty space where you were.
I'm begging you to look at me.
Look at the one so similar to you
This ordeal is too much for me

It so much worse than simply waiting
I became so similar to you that I copied even your habits
There is more of you inside me than myself
I wanna be, wanna be your man
Let's go back to the way things were
I want be reborn as a man that loves you
I won't hurt you ever again
Can I go? I wanna be... I won't let you,
Be your man

It can't not be you
I am so miserable
That I realized this now.
The pictures
Make it look like I am still your love.
The heat of your body and your face
I can still feel it
Deep inside my heart.
Still I have romantic in my heart
I want to go back.

It can't not be you
I am so miserable
That I realized this now.
(Your unforgettable love,
The final tears
Are ripping away at my chest
Leaving only scars that will never heal
Leaving me as my miserable self
I'm so distressed, what do I do?)
The heat of your body and your face
I can still feel it
Deep inside my heart.
Still I have romantic in my heart
I want to go back.
What do I do now?

another note (again): well this song is so-not-me, tapi yaudah emang nyantol gitu mau gimana lagi (?-_-)

yang penasaran ya silakan dengerin aslinya

oke. better stop typing these not-so-important things before my followers say:

"go away, e e e e e, go away, e e e e!"

setdah kenapa malah nyanyi?

anywaaay, annyeong!

Holiday? YES, HOLIDAY! Part 2

title: Holiday? YES, HOLIDAY! Part 2
genre: comedy
category: chapter
rate: NC (not comedy) maksudnya G
casts: semua makhluk SJ + SHINee

just enjoy and laugh at the humors you understand (i bet there aren't) so, yeah

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still at SJ's dorm

setelah kepergian (?) ketiga makhluk urutan 2-3-4 itu, suasana dorm kembali ayem.

leeteuk sibuk mengecek jadwal mereka. kangin masih beberes dan mempersiapkan kebutuhan wamil-nya. shindong sibuk (ngerusuhin) leeteuk sambil sms-an sama nari, yang bikin si leader jeles pengen punya pacar juga

sungmin kebagian tugas piket hari ini, harusnya bareng yesung juga (dicurigai yesung sengaja kabur biar gak usah piket). alhasil, si pink boy kerja bakti sendiri beberes dorm, hiks.

eunhae couple masih asik nonton anime bareng taemin, dan di sebelah mereka ada jonghyun yang mesam-mesem nontonin laptop eunhyuk (nah lho). siwon ngobrol sama onew, entah apa yang diomongin. ryeowook dan key masak-masak untuk makan siang, menunya telor balado plus ayam rica-rica ekstra super pedas, resep dari seorang elfindo.

kibum? rupanya dia absen sodara-sodari, katanya ada syuting dadakan. kyu vs minho main pacman (yaelah jaman kapan ini --") di kamarnya gamekyu.

sekilas emang biasa-biasa saja, tapi...

"ONEW!" teriak seseorang dari dapur yang ternyata adalah wookie.
"JINKI HYUNG, balikin itu ayam kalau nggak AKU NGGAK BAKAL MASAK AYAM LAGI DI DORM!" tambah key.
di dapur ada key dan ryeowook yang sama-sama pegang pisau. sementara orang yang diteriakin baru pasang tampang sepolos-polosnya plus tanpa dosa dengan tangan kanan memegang sepotong ayam balado

"alaaa, cuma sepotong aja! ya wookie hyung, kibum?" rengek onew
"gak! pokoknya balikin!" ryeowook menodongkan pisaunya ke onew "itu ayam belum..."
"aaah hyung~ eh ini enak kan?" dan onew pun menggigit ayam itu dengan beringas. key dan ryeowook saling pandang
"enak lho! enak!" onew tersenyum hepi tralala trilili. tangan kirinya mengacungkan jempol. key dan ryeowook memasang wajah pengen muntah

"hyung, asal hyung tau ya..." key menarik napas. "itu ayam belum mateng. belom digoreng. emangnya ayam mentah enak ya hyung?"
dan onew langsung kabur ke kamar mandi. kapok!
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sementara itu, di depan TV...

"taemin! remote-nya mana?" tanya donghae
"lho tadi yang terakhir bawa eunhyuk hyung kok..."
"anchovy! mana remote? ganti channel! aku bosan nonton naruto!"
"aish, gak boleh ganti! ya gak taem?" eunhyuk cari dukungan. taemin mengangguk-angguk dengan sebotol susu pisang yang tau-tau sudah ada di tangannya

"dasar kalian ini... lho, taemin, sejak kapan kamu bawa susu? eh..." donghae melirik eunhyuk yang masih asik nonton lalu ke taemin lagi
"jangan-jangan kamu nyogok taemin ya hyuk? dasar! bukannya ngajarin yang baik, ini malah ngajarin nyogok nyogok segala!" omel si ikan dengan muka ketekuk

karena udah kepalang bete, donghae pindah tongkrongan ke sebelah jjong

"hayo! nonton apaan jjong?"
"alaaah, hyung kayak gak tau aja, jangan sok polos dah hyung hahaha,"

akhirnya itu orang 2 yadongan via laptop eunhyuk *digampar fishies plus blings plus jewels*
"gilaaa, aku belum nonton yang ini! si kunyuk kok gak bilang sih kalau dia ada stok baru?"
"sst, hyung! gak nikmat nontonnya kalau berisik!" desis jonghyun
"putih banget woi!"
"tapi gak cantik... cantikan juga sekyung,"
donghae melirik jjong dengan tatapan menyelidik

"ada apaan antara kamu sama sekyung? hayo, hayoo!"
"gak ada apa apa lah hyung, ketemu aje belum pernah," jonghyun melengos kesal. "cuma ngepens eh ngefans doang!"
"yah, kirain," donghae kecewa karena gak jadi dapet gosip hot
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di ruang tamu leeteuk masih sibuk memeriksa jadwal member suju. shindong yang (katanya) baru bantuin juga ada di sana, membalik-balik kertas tapi matanya ke hp yang ada di tangannya dan dari tadi berdering terus

"gak bunyi lagi?" sindir leeteuk. aslinya dia envy berat pengen punya pacar juga
"mungkin dia sibuk," jawab shindong, entah nyadar atau nggak kalau dia disindir
"sibuk apaan? nyuci?"
"mana aku tau lah hyung!" dan tepat setelah shindong ngomong hp-nya bunyi lagi, bikin leeteuk pengen banting benda itu. tapi teuki gak berani, soalnya pasti ntar dia bakal dihabisi shindong -- minimal badannya ditindih dan dijamin langsung gepeng seketika

'huaaaa mau jadi apa perut kotak kotakku ini kalau ketindih shindong?" batin leeteuk sambil bergidik ngeri membayangkan scene ajaib itu

"hyung kenapa?" tanya shindong tanpa mengangkat muka dari hp. tangannya menari-nari di keyboard
"anni, anni, gakpapa," jawab leeteuk sambil senyum maksa

Just Me and You -- Part 11

Henry's POV
She's leaving? For America? This saturday?
Eotteokhae? What should I do now?
My brain tell me to call her right away, asked her to go here, and... tell her?
The next thing I know is I dialed Amber's number

Amber's POV
I heard my phone's ringtone and picked it up without looking at the caller's name.
"Hello?"
"Amber?" I read the caller's name. Henry
"Amber? Are you still there?" asked him
"Yes?"
"Are you busy right now?"
"Not really," I glanced at my half-full suitcase. Still have some time to do that. "Why?"
"Umm, just asking, wanna meet?" asked him, stuttering
"Where are you?"
"At our dorm's backyard,"
"Okay, just wait for 5 minutes," I said, and he ended the call. I took my jacket and walked out the dorm
"Vic! I'll go for a while!" and with that, I closed the door

Henry's POV
It's already 5 minutes but she hasn't come. And I'm freezing on this cement bench -____-
Well, that's my fault to only wear a jeans jacket and asked someone to meet at this weather outside a building
At least they have heater there

Suddenly, my phone rang anmd I took it immediately
"Hello?"
"Ya! Henry, where are you?"
"Still at the place I mentioned before,"
"Aren't you freezing? It's really cold outside. I'm already at the apartment, still walking to the backyard,"
"Well, if you aren't coming in 5 minutes more, you'll find a Mr. Snowman here,"
"Sheesh, for your information Mr. Lau, I've been at the backyard terrace," and I turned to see her, with one of her hands on her waist

"Still want to talk by phone?" I asked
"Yes! So I don't have to go there. It's warmer here,"
"Ya! Come here!" I yelled. She laughed and walked to me. Then she stared at me and sighed
"Aigoo! How can you tell me that you're not freezing? See! Your hair is full of snow, babo!" she pointed at my head. "And how could you go outside with just this thin jacket? I bet your hand is very cold, stupid!" said her as she sat beside me

"Stop nagging at me," I rolled my eyes. "The more important thing is, is that true that you're going to America this Saturday?"
I stared at her who was busy kicking snows over
"From who did you hear those things?" she asked
"My hyungs, your eonni told them," I sighed. Okay, do that now, Henry!
"So, yeah, it's true. And did you call me here just to ask that, Mr. Lau?"
"Anni, just wait and see," I said, with my phone on my hand. "Just wait, and see,"

Just Me and You -- Part 10

@ f(x)'s Dorm
"Guys, I have some news for you," said Amber when all f(x) members were gathering in the TV room
"What's it?" asked Vic
"I... will go to the States..."
"BWOH?" the 4 of them yelled and gaped at Amber with a you-must-be-kidding face

"Why? How? WHEN?!" asked Luna, almost screaming
"For the treatment of my legs, erm, it'a next Saturday,"
"And HOW LONG will it be?"
"Whoa, calm guys! Maybe I'll be there for more than 6 months. This one is a serious injury," Amber sighed
"Noooo way! Eonni! Don't go!" Sulli and Krystal pleaded. Amber gave them a faint smile and shook her head
"Or else I won't be able to dance with you forever," said her. "Okaaaay, I'll start to pack my things now. Later on, girls!"

As Amber headed to her bedroom, the other members glanced at each other
"Eonniiiii, eotteokhaeyo?" Luna whispered
"Better tell the boys, eonni,"
"Okay," Victoria took her phone from the table and started to call Leeteuk
"Wait, what do I have to tell to them?" asked Victoria blankly
"Eonni ya! Amber's leaving for America!"

@ SJ's Dorm
"Hyung! Your phone!" Sungmin shouted
"Pick it! Pick it!" Leeteuk yelled from the bathroom. Sungmin picked the call
"Yoboseyeo?" said him. "He's, erm, with his business right now. So, what is it?"
A minute later, Sungmin's expression had changed

"Err, okay, I'll tell him. Okay, okaaaayyy. Annyeong," and he ended the conversation
"Who's that?" asked Leeteuk, still drying his hand with a tissue
"Victoria,"
"Why?"
"I think we have to change our plan,"
"But why?"
"Just call the members except Henry, hyung,"
"Who's the leader here? Go call them!" Leeteuk pushed Sungmin out from the room

Amber's POV
Do I have to go? The doctors said that I must go and have a treatment there
But, but, BUT!
Leave my friends here is hard, and...
Gosh. What about him? What about Henry?
Well. Think about that later. I still have these things to be packed

Henry's POV
Where are they? Where are my hyungs?
Now I'm in the dorm, all alone again.
Just where in the world are they?
Well, let's check the other dorm...

Author's POV
@ SJ's Dorm
"SHE'S GOING TO GO?" Leeteuk screeched.
"Ssh, calm, hyung!" Shindong pulled the leader's arm. "I thought you've know about it!"

"Sungmin hyung, is that true?" asked Kyuhyun, a bit interested
"Yes, Victoria said that she's going to America this Saturday..."
"Who's going to America?" asked someone.
"Ya! I have mentioned it before! It's Amber -- wait, who's there?"
"Is that Henry?"
"HENRY?"

Then the door was banged. What all of them knew is that Henry had left the dorm
"Oh.no. A BIG, FAT, UGLY NO!" Heechul screamed and successfully made the other members stared at him in disgust -_-
"Where'd he go?"
"Maybe f(x)'s dorm?"
"I'm not sure," said Siwon. "I'll try to find him,"
"No, don't," Leeteuk pulled the tallest man. "We should let him have a time for himself,"
The other members nodded

"How could you be so wise, hyung?" asked Eunhyuk. Leeteuk shot him with a death-glare and hit the anchovy's head with his fist

just another angsty-fanfic that i made in late-midnight ._.
but it's a draaaabbleeee *then so what?*
gak usah banyak bacot well enjoy guys~
character: kyutoria (again)

"Do you know that I like your old self better?
Or maybe you just don't care?
And so what if you care?"

She muttered under her breath. Her left hand was holding her phone

"Just replying a message. Is it that hard?"

She glanced at her phone. Once, twice, three times, four times...

"I just want to make sure that at least, you still have an eye on me. Or should I say, you don't ignore me"

She kept her phone away but still waiting for it to ring

"Yes. You're ignoring me,"

She knows that waiting like that is silly. Or in another word, hopeless

"I know... I shouldn't confess at that time. Bad timing,"

She sighed and threw her sight outside the window

"The distance between us is going wider and wider days by days since that time,"

She crossed her arms and closed her eyes. Tried to forget about that person and what happened with them.

"I... regret it,"

She said, as a drop of tear escaped from her eyes.

"Why am I crying? It's nonsense. Nothing will change. Time won't reverse. What I've done won't undid. Nothing will affected how much I shed my tears,"

"... these tears are meaningless"

A/N drabble drabble drabble! angst angst angst! ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ (?)

sheesh. i'm writing with my iPod, in bed, 'cause of this fever == i hate being sick

well. these days i'm crazy 'bout reality shows. korean reality shows, like idol army or what-so-ever like that. kkkkk
and yes, i always download the episodes everyday. yes yes yes yes yes. woohoo~

my favorite one *or two? or three?* is Hello Baby (both Soshi's and SHINee's) then Idol Army and and and f(x) Koala. they could make you ROFL-ing practically. haha

btw, it's already the 5th day of my holiday. there's still... like, 9 days more?
but gosh i'm HELLA BORED at home. it's boringboringboringboring. all i can do is sitting in front of my computer, downloading some videos or just lying on my bed with earphones or headphones

even holiday could be this boring ==

oh yes! some days ago della shared a link of a video. a sick and crazy chicken CF video
but i love the chicken dong and chicken-chicken (instead of sorry sorry). i'm laughing like crazy whenever i watch the video, LOL xD

okay, that's all fellas. bye

p.s. if you want to watch the video, here you go:

Holiday? YES, HOLIDAY! -- Part 1

karena ane gak ada kerjaan selain buka blog dll, jadi mending bikin postingan aje --"

ini FF lagi ya~

Title: Holiday? YES, HOLIDAY! (Part 1)

Genre: Comedy

Rate: G

Character: SJ + SHINee

sangtae alert! asli ini garing --"

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Hari ini libur, alias SJ gak ada kerjaan. Dan kebetulan SHINee juga baru libur. Jadi hari ini para makhluk SHINee memutuskan untuk sowan ke dorm sunbae mereka itu.

-Dorm Bawah-

TING TONG! Jonghyun memencet bel dorm bawah SJ. Setelah ditunggu beberapa menit ternyata itu pintu nggak dibuka-buka juga.

"Hyung, gimana nih?" tanya Jonghyun. Onew mengangkat bahu.

"Yaudah, ke dorm atas aja yuk," ajak si leader maniak ayam. Mereka lalu berjalan ke lift dan naik ke lantai tempat dorm SJ yang satunya.

-Dorm Atas-

TING TONG! Kali ini yang mencet bel si Key. Lalu beberapa detik kemudian terdengar suara gaduh dari dalam.

PRANG KROMPYANG! GEDUBRAK!

"Yaaaah Cho Kyuhyun! Beresin kabel PS-mu! Bikin orang kesandung tau nggak?" omel seseorang sambil membukakan pintu. Ternyata Siwon.

"Aaa, kalian. Ada apa?" tanya Siwon, buru-buru mengganti ekspresinya dari sebel tingkat dewa jadi sok cool dan kalem.

"Cuma mau main ke dorm kok hyung," jawab Taemin sekenanya. Ryeowook yang mendengar suara ribut dari arah pintu depan langsung menghampiri.

"Lho? Kalian lagi? Mau minta makanan?" tanya Ryeowook heran.

"Tet-toot! Salah hyung!" kata Minho.

"Oh, numpang makan?" tebak Wookie.

"Bukaaaaan!"

"Nitipin Taemin lagi?"

"Bukan! Sok tau!"

"Terus apaan?"

"Wong kita cuma mau main kok hyung. Weeeeek *mehrong~*" Minho menjulurkan lidahnya. Ryeowook cepet-cepet nyopot sendalnya terus nyambit Minho pakai itu sendal Swallow *lho nyebut merk*

BUK! Tepat sasaran. Taemin langsung menghampiri hyungnya itu dengan wajah cemas.

"Yaaa! Wookie-hyung kejam! Ummmaaaaaa! Wookie-hyung kejam!" Taemin menunjuk-nunjuk Ryeowook sambil menarik baju Key.

"Hyung, gwaenchana?" Taemin berbalik ke arah Minho yang masih mengelus kepalanya yang kena sambitan mautnya Wookie.

"Gwaenchana, gwaenchana," gumam Minho dengan muka BT. Taemin tersenyum sambil menepuk-nepuk pelan kepala Minho.

(okeee, 2Min moment ended! Nanti malah bikin FF 2Min jadinya --")

Setelah insiden kecil itu Siwon menyuruh makhluk SHINee masuk ke dorm. Onew, as usual, kabur ke ruang makan cari ayam. Jonghyun nyariin Eunhyuk, nggak tau mau ngapain. Minta video yadongan kali *digetok blings*

Key langsung pergi ke dapur bareng Ryeowook. Mungkin hari ini mereka bakal ngadain demo masak. Minho ke kamar Kyuhyun, rencananya mau bujuk si GameKyu biar minjemin game terbaru. Taemin duduk di sofa sambil nonton One Piece (btw Taemin suka One Piece lhooo *gakpenting)

Beberapa menit kemudian, terdengar bunyi rusuh dan pintu dibanting, disusul suara langkah kaki Hangeng, Heechul dan Yesung.

"Yaaaa! Jangan banting pintunya!" teriak Leeteuk. "Mahal tau!"

"Halah, sok hemat lu!" cibir Heechul.

"Bukan sok hemat, tapi emang hemat!" ledek Siwon.

"Cih, mentang-mentang orang kayaaaaaa~"

"Lho kok gitu jadinya?"

Taemin dan Eunhyuk (yang ikutan nonton) merasa terganggu debat kusir di depan mereka dan sepakat untuk melempari pihak-pihak yang bertikai dengan bantal di sofa terus langsung kabur ke kamar Eunhyuk.

"DONGSAENG SIALAAAAAAAN!" teriak Leeteuk. Heechul, Hangeng dan Yesung langsung angkat kaki dari TKP. Emang aslinya mereka mau pergi kok~

"Lho, lho, kalian mau kemana hyung?" tanya Siwon.

"Anu, kalau aku mau siaran YoungStreet. Gak ngerti 2 makhluk ini mau ngapain," jawab Heechul.

"Aku mau nemenin Heechul siaran, iya kan yeobo?" sambung Hangeng sambil kedip-kedip najong. Heechul bergidik jijik.

"Aku mau cari makanannya Ddangkoma. Udah abis tuh," tambah Yesung.

"Yaudah sana pergi hus hus hus!" Leeteuk mendorong ketiga makhluk aneh itu keluar dan membanting pintu dorm.

"Lho hyung? Katanya gak boleh banting pintu?"

"Halah!"

random writing

before start to write, i want to share this first:

YEAH the second MV. will download immediately. kekekeke

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"Where have you been?"
I always be by your side, my angel

"Where are you now?"
I'm here! Urgh. You can't hear me, right?

"Do you think about me? Please do. Because I do."
I do. Always

"Do you know how much I shed my tears for you? Do you know how bad is the pain? Do you know that I keep calling your name before I sleep, just to wish in the next day you'll back for me?"
I know. I've always watch you.

"I hate you. I hate you for making my life miserable, I hate you for made me suffer at the first time you gone, I hate you that much so I couldn't forget about you. I hate you, I hate you."
Do anything but not hate me, chagi. I'm sorry

"This pain is still the same pain, Jinki-ya,"
And it's also the same for me

"You left me alone. You leave without me!"
I don't want to left you alone! I want to be by your side!

"I still remember the last time we go together. Did you remember that?"
I still remember it too. The littlest details

"Could you please back, Jinki-ya? I miss you. Terribly miss you,"
I wish I could, chagi. I wish I could. Bogoshippeo

"I don't want to forget all of our memories, but they said I have to move on. I don't want to!"
Please don't forget about me! About us! About our memories!

"Should I go to the place where you are now?"
If you want to... No! Don't! It's not because I don't love you, but... you still have life to live in!

"I wish you could be by my side now,"
Chagi... I'm here! Can you hear me?

"I'm a fool for wishing like that, no?"
No! You're totally not a fool! I... I...

"If wishing upon a shooting star could do, I'll... I'll do it,"
.....

"But that will NEVER do,"
I wish that will EVER do

"Jeongmal saranghae, Jinki-ya,"
Na do saranghae, chagi. Please wipe your tears away. I hate to see your crying face
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She was sitting at the back garden of her house. Lee Jinki which she couldn't see was standing a meter away from her.

"Don't cry, chagiya, please don't..." he whispered. He hugged her from behind and she flinched a bit
"Do you feel my hug?" he moved and faced her, then kissed her lightly.
"Can you feel the kiss?" she touched her lips and tears started welling on her eyes.

"Is that you, Jinki-ya?"
"Yes. It's me, chagi. Don't cry. I'm here,"
"Is that you?"
"It's me! It's your Jinki!"
"Are you here for real?"
"It's for real,"
"But... but... I can't see you. I just can hear your voice,"
"I'm right in front of you,"
"There's nothing..."
"I wish you can see me,"
"I wish I can,"
"Can you see me now?"
"No, I see nothing,"
"Could you feel my hand?"
"Yes. Bogoshippeo Jinki-ya,"
"Na do Bogoshippeoyeo"
"Promise to me you won't leave me again?"
"As long as it's for you, dear my lady, I'll promise,"

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okaaaay. is this an angst? or fluff? or what? ahahaha --

written by me. no offense #hoh?

Title: One-Sided
Genre: (failed) angst *sigh*, one-shot
Rate: PG-13
Character: Victoria

She stared at her phone blankly, waiting for something from someone to came out. Just a simple message like 'How was your day?' or 'Are you okay?' will make her feel satisfied and boost her mood for a full-day.

Because that means, he still have a little attention for her.

She opened her inbox folder and browsed through the messages there. She smiled at some message but frowned at the other.

Love could make someone go crazy, her dongsaengs thought while nodding silently at each other.

Then, her phone rang and she will yelped in excitement. Her dongsaengs rolled their eyes together, started from Luna, then they decided to leave the leader in the livingroom alone with her craziness.

She didn't know and doesn't even care. Her smile grew wider to a grin when she typed a reply for the message.
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It's been a week since the last time they texted each other (well, if you call asking about each other's condition as texting, then count it). She knew that he's busy with his new group, with recording, shows, and debut stages. But it's being too much and she felt like... his affection for her has gone.

Her mood went down, her dongsaengs were being a bit frustated. She's the leader but yet she has no power she usually does. When they asked about her condition, she always just nods her head slightly as the approval that she's okay, but her eyes say no. What does she need now is the little attention.

She avoided her own phone, like having a bad phobia on it. Just staring at it with no hope is hurts like hell. Everytime she wanted to text him, her heart says no.

She knows, she always knows. Her feeling is one-sided and people always say that one-sided feelings have no hope.

She hates the truth that her relationship with him is just like an oppa-dongsaeng relationship. Not more than that. She knows that all the affection he has poured to her, is just like a big brother's love for his little sister. Although the one who is older is her, but that's the way he treat her. And someway, somehow, it hurts.

The way he took care of her is the same way with him to her dongsaengs. At first she felt that he treat her 'more special', but now she has realized about the real fact.
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*click*

She pressed the 'delete' button and erased all of his messages. A depressed sigh escaped from her lips and a faint smile appeared at her face.

Like what her 3 dongsaengs have said to her, she has to move on. Sulli has threaten her to erase his messages from her phone or she will do it by herself. Even Krystal has promised to take her and introduce her to Krystal's college friends (for what? yeah, blind dates. sometimes Krystal is too crazy)

She sighed once more, wiped the tears that appeared at her eyes and smiled. She put her phone away and hummed,

"Nan neol, neol saenggakhamyeon,
Neomu apa, apa apa, apa apa..."
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Well sorry if there's a bunch of typo here. see, i'm writing with my iPod touch and i'm typing in a lightning speed, so... yeah you know.

anywaaaayyy, umm, do you know what's the pairing here? or who's the 'he' in this fanfiction?

it's 우리 슈퍼 주니어 막내 (our Super Junior's maknae), 초 규현 (Cho Kyuhyun), hehe xD

so that means that this is a KyuToria fanfics! *bricked by khuntoria shippers*

SM the Ballad

ada yang tau SM the Ballad? itu, yang kemaren kapan itu debut di Inkigayo. waktu itu mereka bawain first single mereka yang judulnya Miss You itu.

ini MV Miss You (yang menurut ane asli lebay. banget. apalagi bagian endingnya HAHA)


jangan ngarep itu MV ada dance-nya. mana cocok lagu mellow gitu digabung dance --"

membernya ada 4 biji, Jay TRAX, Kyuhyun Super Junior, Jonghyun SHINee, sama si maknae Jino yang masih trainee. dan sampai sekarang aku belum bisa bedain Jay sama Jino lhooo DX

their first album, titled Really Missing You (kalau gasalah) sejauh ini lagunya aku baru punya lagunya 4 biji. Miss You, Don't Lie (Jjong-Jino ft. Henry SJ-M), Another Day (Jay), terus Love Again (Kyuhyun). aaaand my favorite one is Don't Lie! tapi masih bingung bedain suara Henry sama Jino -.-

fandom? ini nih -_- namanya gak enak tudemeks. masa' namanya SEXER coba ._.

berhubung ane gak tau banyak yasudahlah ._. hmm cukup sekian dan terimakasih sudah bersedia baca bacotan gak penting ini. buh-byeee

Jealousy

Title: Jealousy
Genre: yaoi, drabble
Rate: PG
Character: 2Min, Key

oke. kali ini pake bahasa indonesia ye HAHA. terinspirasi dari kiss scene-nya Minho di pianist, ceritanya Taem marah hahahaha xD
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SHINee's Dorm

BRAK! Terdengar suara pintu dibanting dari kamar Taemin. Key buru-buru keluar dari dapur dan berjalan ke kamar anak bungsunya itu. Ia mengetuk pintunya pelan.

"Taemin-ah, waeyo?" tanyanya.

"Anni, gwaenchana hyung," jawab Taemin.

"Taeminnie, buka pintunya sekarang atau aku akan mendobrak pintumu!" ancam Key. Ia mendengar suara langkah kaki, dan sedetik kemudian si mushroom headed boy sudah berdiri di depannya.

"Jadi, ada apa?" tanya Key setelah masuk ke kamar Taemin.

"Anni. Nggak papa kok hyung," jawab Taemin sekenanya.

"Lee Taemin. Nggak perlu bohong. Ayo, kenapa?"

"Aaaah, kan aku sudah bilang gak ada apa-apa hyung. Kok hyung gak percaya sih?" Taemin cemberut.

"Hei, aku umma di sini! Dan aku tahu kalau kau ada masalah. Ayo ceritakaaaaan~!" paksa Key. Taemin melengos.

".... ini... karena Minho-hyung," gumam Taemin.

"Kau ada masalah apa dengannya? Kalian marahan lagi?"

"Nggak! Bukan begitu hyung. Sebenarnya nggak ada apa apa. Tapi kemarin waktu aku nonton drama Pianist itu..."

"Oh, yayayaya. Bagian itu? Sudahlah! Itu kan cuma akting,"

"Tapi, aku capek! Hyung, aku capek melihatnya! Aku benci kalau dia harus melakukan hal 'itu' dengan orang lain, biarpun itu cuma untuk pekerjaan! Hyung..." Taemin terisak pelan.

"..."

"Hyung~ Umma~ bisakah kau katakan pada Minho untuk tidak mengambil peran seperti itu lagi?"

"Ara, ara, Taeminnie! Sssh, sudah! Nanti ajak saja dia bicara setelah dia pulang. Arasseo?"

"Ne, umma. Gomawo," gumam Taemin, tapi masih terdengar isakan di sela-sela kata-katanya. Key menghela napas pelan.

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Yak! rampung. drabble gak mutu. :P gak niat soalnya!