broke down

my laptop went off. i couldn't break through the password up until now.

next saturday

it means, the 29th of October.
the first semester's report book distribution, means i will know about my score for my super-first semester here.
will the scores also be super too? dunno.

i might not be the winner. no more.

i'd tried to keep it up inside my self, told my brain that it's not a big deal and smiled... but it hurts a lot.
it's okay if they only do that once, but not that often.
what's so wrong about being different from them? not having the same taste with them? is it a big deal? about studies and also about exams, is it wrong if i'd prepared it before and do it without telling them? is it wrong if i sometimes speak in a language they don't know? do they have to care if i don't share the same interest with them?

IS IT THAT FUNNY SO THAT THEY COULD USE IT AS JOKES?

i know that they're only joking. but it's too much and i'm already sick of it. not funny at all.

dry laughs are dry laughs.
i don't ever think that they're my REAL friends.

warming-up

because nobody could always be the winner. included me.

Sometimes hit, sometimes miss, it's always like that
Just do it right tomorrow, it's just a small mistake
Sometimes bottom, sometimes top, sometimes number 1
Getting 1st place, you can only go down


Without it, just live without it
It's just greed you have before you win it
Your suffering now is a sign of your hard work
Everybody knows you tried, everybody knows it's alright
(U-KISS -- Someday)

GOOD LUCK!!!! :D

next monday

next monday... and i haven't prepared anything... yet.