i'd tried to keep it up inside my self, told my brain that it's not a big deal and smiled... but it hurts a lot.
it's okay if they only do that once, but not that often.
what's so wrong about being different from them? not having the same taste with them? is it a big deal? about studies and also about exams, is it wrong if i'd prepared it before and do it without telling them? is it wrong if i sometimes speak in a language they don't know? do they have to care if i don't share the same interest with them?

IS IT THAT FUNNY SO THAT THEY COULD USE IT AS JOKES?

i know that they're only joking. but it's too much and i'm already sick of it. not funny at all.

dry laughs are dry laughs.
i don't ever think that they're my REAL friends.