first gif attempt

oh and please kindly tell me if this is not good~

(again) randomness -- oh, picspam!

SO! hello guys~

this is Onew speaking... lol *slapped

suzy, check! minho, check! jiyeon, check! BUT WHERE THE HECK DID ONEW COME FROM?!!

oh. OH. sulli and her eye-smileeeeeeeeeeeee (me sounding like a fanboy naw)

Sulli: Who? | Krystal: Me! 

SULBROSSSSSSS :D oh oh oh oh ohohohoh

anyone waiting for this?

looks like i didn't pay much attention to this blog .-.
so sorry, bloggie *hug

Something (un)important to be said

Random. Mungkin menyinggung satu orang tertentu. Nek wani, maju kene.

So it goes like this. Kemarin sabtu saya baca mention dari satu orang (sebut aja si D) di twitter *iyalah*. Saya lupa isinya tapi intinya gini:

"Si @aufavape udah dapet 37 to NEMnya? Kok masih sedih?"

Well. I didn't cry for no reason. Ada beberapa alasan yang pengen takbilangin ke orang itu (yang entah apa maksudnya ngemention, mau nyindir kok terang-terangan), tapi alasan lain *halah* bikin saya ngebatalin acara berargumen-ria (?)

First. Alasan kenapa saya nangis (yes I criedddd) bisa dibilang karena nilai saya yang nggak sesuai harapan. Terus juga karena saya ngerasa kemungkinan masuk padmanaba (SMA 3 Yogyakarta) mengecil, padahal dari SD kelas berapa gitu saya udah ngidam masuk sana =_____=

Second. Alasan kenapa saya nggak pengen ngebales mention dia itu karena saya nggak mau dibilang *pip* *pip* dan *pip* *opoh*

Intinya saya males cari masalah sama dia. Nggak elit aja gitu *sok abis* *kibas rambut*
Padahal aslinya saya udah pengen banget ngebentak itu orang langsung. Seriously, situ berani amat ya bangunin macan tidur? Orang galau disindir? Minta dibacok apa ya? Pas saya udah rada rileks setelah pengumuman, baca mention itu, jadi keinget lagi, galau lagi. Lah elah =_=
I was really moody back then.

Bukannya saya sombong, atau nganggep saya mestinya dapet seginilah, segitulah, seginilah. Bukannya saya nggak bersyukur sama nilai saya yang bisa dibilang lumayan. Tapi...
Looks likes this one matter is too difficult to be explained, anyway.

If, yup. If, kalau, jika, dll. Kalau selama periode sebulan nunggu UN kamu udah positif dapet nilai melampaui target (fyi target saya 38.00, realisasi 37.45), terus pas pengumuman jebul UADOH TENAN sama targetnya (oke lebay, nggak terlalu, tapi 5.5 di kancah perebutan kursi *dih* SMA tu akeh je), bakal gimana?
Kalau saya, saya ngedrop. I bursted into tears right after I heard that my score was far far far away from the target I've made. Galau tingkat dewa. Nangis sesenggukan bareng della (temen saya), sesama nilai jauh dari target *digampar*

Ini tragedi NEM UASBN kelas 6 keulang lagi.
Dan saya takut kalau tragedi PSB Online SMP keulang juga. Dulu saya kelempar pilihan 1-2 dan masuk pilihan 3. Miris? Emang. Nggak? Yaudah.

Mungkin bagi mereka saya lebay soalnya pake acara nangis, padahal dapet nilai lumayan.
Mungkin bagi mereka saya nggak bersyukur.
Mungkin bagi mereka saya sombong.
Mungkin bagi mereka saya kurang ajar (?)

Tapi saya punya alasan kenapa saya nangis. Itu trauma lho. Trauma. Ente tau trauma? Nggak tau? Tanya mbah google.

Soalnya kejadiannya beneran mirip sama yang dulu. Saya udah ngarep2 masuk SMP5 tapi NEM gak cukup. SMP8 NEM saya mepet, kelempar juga, masuk SMP1.
Walaupun in the end saya juga seneng kok sekolah di ZNC, kebacut pewe pula. Asik gitu.

Tapi kalau yang sekarang...jujur. Saya takut banget. NEM segitu, meski udah dikasih tambahan (jadi 37.85), kalau dilihat dari passing grade taun lalu kayaknya bakal tetap 'menggiriskan' gitu nasibnya. Passing grade SMA3 taun lalu 37.7, 37.85 udah masuk daftar halaman terakhir. Mingklik mingklik.
Mana tau kalau taun ini naik lagi? Nah lho?

B2ST - Lights Go on Again

I prefer the full version to the teaser (?) version anyway .___.

Yes sir, lights go on again
Keep on and on and on, on and on and on
Gyesok hemaeettji gin eodum sogeseo
Nan han julgi bichi dahneun geugose dahgi wihaeseo
Nan ije shigani gappeun soom gadadeumgo
Neoheedeul ape dangdanghi seolge

Amuri himdeureodo jichyeoseo sseureojyeodo
Nareul dashi bichwojuneun bit

Pogihago shipeodo domangchiryeogo haebwado
Nal hyanghae deo hwanhage nareul dashi bichwojuneun bit

Jigeum buli gyeojimyeon dashi nareul balkhimyeon
Nae momeul dashi ireugyeo oh
Light go on again lights go on again

Dashi bicheul bichumyeon dashi nareul ggaeumyeon
Nae maeumeul dashi umjikyeo oh
Lights go on again lights go on again

Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again yeah
Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again on again

I sigan ddohan jinagagettji da jinagagonamyeon useo neomgigettji
Momi jichineun geon mwo gwaenchanha naman himdeun ge anya heunhida geureohjanha
But, maeumo dachyeobeorigeona dadhyeobeorimyeon kamsang hal su eobtneun sangcheoreul badabeorimyeon
Geuddaen eoddeohke haeya hal ji nan molla
Dangshindeul ape dashi seol su eobseul jido molla

Neomuna himdeun naldo meomchwoittdeon shigando
Jichyeoman ganeun nareul deo

Balkke bichwojubeun geon kkeut eobsi nareul hyanghae
Ganghage deo hwanhage dashi nareul bichwojuneun bit

Jigeum buli kyeojimyeon dashi nareul balkimyeon
Nae momeul dashi ireugyeo oh
Lights go on again lights go on again

Dashi bicheul bichumyeon dashi nareul kkaeumyeon
Nae maeumeul dashi umjikyeo oh
Lights go on again lights go on again

Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again yeah
Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again on again
Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again
Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again on again

Translation:

Yes sir, lights go on again
Keep on and on and on, on and on and on
I continued to wonder in the midst of the long darkness
So that I can reach that spot that will touch the one string of light
Now that my time is here, I will take a short breath
And stand confindently in front of you all

No matter how hard it might be, even if I fall from being tired
The light that shines on me again

Even if I want to give up, if I want to run away
The lights that shines brighter towards me

When the lights turns on and it shines on me again
It makes me rise again oh
Lights go on again lights go on again

When the lights shine on me and it wakes me up once again
It moves my heart again oh
Lights go on again lights go on again

Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again yeah
Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again on again

This time will pass again and if it passes by again I will just laugh it off
It is okay even if my body is tired, I’m not the only one tired, it happens to everyone
But, if my heart is damaged or closed, or it is hurt by a scar it can’t handle
I don’t know what to do then
I might not be able to stand in front of all of you again.

Even in the hardest of the days and in the frozen time
You continue to brighten the light on my exhausted self

Endlessly you continue shine
That light on me brighter and stronger

When the lights turns on and it shines on me again
It makes me rise again oh
Lights go on again lights go on again

When the lights shine on me and it wakes me up once again
It moves my heart again oh
Lights go on again lights go on again

Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again yeah
Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again on again

Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again
Oh lights go on again
Oh oh lights go on again on again