i'd tried to keep it up inside my self, told my brain that it's not a big deal and smiled... but it hurts a lot.
it's okay if they only do that once, but not that often.
what's so wrong about being different from them? not having the same taste with them? is it a big deal? about studies and also about exams, is it wrong if i'd prepared it before and do it without telling them? is it wrong if i sometimes speak in a language they don't know? do they have to care if i don't share the same interest with them?

IS IT THAT FUNNY SO THAT THEY COULD USE IT AS JOKES?

i know that they're only joking. but it's too much and i'm already sick of it. not funny at all.

dry laughs are dry laughs.
i don't ever think that they're my REAL friends.

warming-up

because nobody could always be the winner. included me.

Sometimes hit, sometimes miss, it's always like that
Just do it right tomorrow, it's just a small mistake
Sometimes bottom, sometimes top, sometimes number 1
Getting 1st place, you can only go down


Without it, just live without it
It's just greed you have before you win it
Your suffering now is a sign of your hard work
Everybody knows you tried, everybody knows it's alright
(U-KISS -- Someday)

GOOD LUCK!!!! :D

next monday

next monday... and i haven't prepared anything... yet.

as the time passes, things gradually changed --but i feel like i'm the one who's standing still on the exactly same place, haven't moved into anywhere... yet.

hello october, and also hello end-of-my-first-semester

YEAH. this is october, everyoneeee!!!! happy new month!

it's saturday. and it's the first day of some schools' regular mid-term exam. i didn't have one today and the following days, but yeah i'll have the end-of-semester exam in the next two weeks --or you could say, starting from the 10th of october 'till the 17th of October. cool rite? *faints

anyway, for all of my friends who's going to have their exams, GOOD LUCK!!!! hope the best for all of you! :D

cheers~

P.S. right now it's SNSD! oh i mean, right now i'm being a bit crazy over BEG's Sixth Sense. just can't get Narsha's voice out of my mind for real-_- anyway, for those who have any other song suggestion, could you tell me please? ;)