swings

a month ago it was up, but now it's down to the lowest level.

it's all because of...you.

my good mood is all gone.

was like...

jadi begini. (mood posting with indonesian: on)

was like shocked sekaligus seneng waktu ada temen -sebut saja si Z- bilang, 'eh si X putus sama si Y lho!' which is, kabar putus itu sangat kita --I mean, me and Z-- nantikan. mungkin juga sama beberapa orang yang tidak meridhai *ek* si X dan si Y pacaran.

tapi sayangnya itu tidak bertahan lama.

beberapa hari kemudian, waktu chat sama temen yang lain -anggap namanya W-

'udah tau tentang si X?'
'itu? dia kan udah balikan lagi to?'

krik. krik. krik. #kemudianhening.

galau. galau antara mau nyelamatin sama mau marahin dia,

'kamu nyadar nggak e kalau dia tuh nggak serius, mosok putus-nyambung gitu, nyadar nggak e dia itu nggak konsisten? KAMU NYADAR NGGAK E KALAU MASIH BANYAK COWOK YANG LEBIH BAGUS DARI DIA?! NGAPAIN NERIMA WAKTU DIA NGAJAK BALIKAN KALAU KAYAK GITU?!'

which is mustahil saya lakukan *sigh*

aduh, labilnya dikau nak...

P.S. semakin curiga kalau si cowok pake pelet.

waiting for a single message has never been this tiring before

2nd semester

i realized as my chemistry teacher asked my class to buy the second semester's book that i'd left the first semester behind.
i haven't finished adapting, for real. but at least i've tried... don't know whether it succeed or not. in my opinion, half yes half not.


oh and i've found my other interest besides some i've had before. language(s) are my territory now.

broke down

my laptop went off. i couldn't break through the password up until now.